So I went to the cinema for the first time in three months. It was to see The Campaign which was so awful, I would totally tell you to not waste your time seeing it. But I didn’t care, I was in the cinema, God how I missed that. There were so many films I have wanted to see over the months, and I never got to see them, and my mother agreed to see this piece of shit with me. Oh well.
We then went to Frankie & Benny’s for pizza. I told my mother how I wanted to work in the movie industry and I was surprised that she actually said that I should go for it. Usually she’s the type to say that is a stupid/unrealistic dream to follow but she was actually encouraging me. I guess it’s because I’m feeling pretty lost right now, I crave a career and independence, I am done with my family.
I told her about the receptionist job for a film/media production in London, however she alerted me that could be a porn industry. They advertise for receptionists/secretaries then tell you that a star hasn’t shown up and that you could fill their place so to speak. And before you know it, BAM, your a porn star. I don’t know how she knows that, but it totes happens.
I tried to drop into the conversation that I wanted a train ticket home soon, but that was ignored. If I were paying for it, I could leave anytime but since she’d be the one paying, she’s keeping me. However she did say that she and her partner would help fund an apartment near London sometime (anyone want to flat share with me?). Ugh, I honestly can’t wait for independence. I’m 22, not 12, it’s pathetic staying with your parents that long, especially when I could have had a flat ages ago with a friend from school. Yup when I was 17 going on 18, a girl (whom I now don’t speak to now) said we should flat share (I had a well paid job back then and did she) but I didn’t because my mother was in such a bad position with my dad. Because I was so nice, I said that I would stay with my mother, if I hadn’t I could still be living with that friend whom I do kind of miss actually.
Ugh. I still want to empty out my savings account and just head off to anywhere. I’d have over £600, people travel with less than that and manage. I really want to go trekking around South America and see all the ancient ruins. Then head off to the wilderness in Canada. But hey if I get a job in the film industry I could go to Vancouver, that’s where all the movies are filmed now a days.